Darkness

flameandshine:

“..You are right. I don’t know what I’m doing or saying..” he reflected quietly.

My words were as quiet as his cats just outside his bedroom door. I held up my left hand to my face, finding the tiny soft green lines pointing at 12 and 5. I turned to face him, the bare light from the window outlining his curly hair and his arching back. I knew I had entered his poetic memory, with great success. It was not exactly the way I had planned to tell him, but it worked nonetheless. There, lying next to me, was a young man who had just been hit with a foreign and unapologetic slap. And I wanted to laugh at him for his stupidity.

But instead, I laughed at the sad reality that I could never have him. I laughed at myself mostly, but I also found his quest for collecting lovers amusing. He hopes to be completely vulnerable with every lover he is going to be with, form connections on a mental, emotional and physical level, take everything these lovers will be giving him, and leave them in a state of perpetual awe. In short, this is what we would come to know as ‘The Asshole’. A tiny hopeful dingy in my ocean of pessimism came into my visual mind; that dingy represented him.

I reached over to touch his shoulders, hardened from the time spent in the gym and littered with spots. “I read a book called The Unbearable Lightness of Being by Milan Kundera, and in it, he introduced two kinds of lovers: the epic lover and the romantic lover. You are on the path to be the former,” I whispered.

“How are the two different?”
“The former collects one tiny quirk from every lover and remembers them by that one quirk. The latter is driven by an ideal, an all-encompassing love and lover.”
“You are right. You are so right. I can’t believe I didn’t see that.”
“All your talk about being vulnerable and opening yourself to every single girl you meet, is bullshit that feeds your ego. You know nothing of what you are doing. You are the epitome of an Asshole.”

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Girl Code

nowheretaylor:

On Slut Shaming

On Ridiculous Beauty Standards

On Not Being Ashamed Of Your Sexuality 

On Letting Others Make You Feel “Ugly” 

On Not Letting Others Dictate What You Can And Can’t Do

On Asking For What You Want (….In Bed)

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